NOTE: Featured image taken at the Viktor & Rolf exhibition at the NGV.


So I’m taking each fear by each moment.

Every call I don’t want to make.

Because it means asking for help.

Asking for something.

Every email that I don’t want to send,

because it means putting myself out there.


Every marker I don’t want to buy,

Because it means I need to see scraggly sketches.

I’d rather tell people what to do than sketch my vision.

So daunting.

Picking up a paint brush.

Ordering sequins.

Every move.

Making it real.

Real-er than ever.

And it’s making me face the past.

Recognise it for every win that it was.

Not every loss I thought it was.

What’s winning and losing anyways?