It’s been a wild ride.
Last year threw me into a collision path with intuition, telepathy, clairvoyance / visions, chakras, synchronicity and so many wild dreams. In the short span of 4 months, I’ve stalked concepts like the 5th Dimension, meditation frequencies, advanced souls and so much more.
I had NO IDEA what was happening and to be honest – once I realised how big it was, I was: shit. scared.
I never believed in psychics or fortune tellers. I thought it was all BS + “woo woo”.
I only started to understand energy a year or so ago. My counsellor had been saying for years, “Energy doesn’t lie” and I didn’t quite grasp the concept till very recently.
Now I know. People say things all the time. But only what you feel underneath it, is what is true. I’ve spoken to the sternest, coldest people, with the toughest demeanour and felt just how deep their love is for me. From mentors to my own dad. People aren’t always whom they speak or appear to be – but their energy doesn’t lie 🙂 Vibes am I right?!
I’ve been down a rabbit hole trying to understand it all. When I started meditation, I wasn’t in pursuit of all this.
I simply saw: I stressed less.
Sunaina, who worked for me at one time said to me, “I’ve never worked for someone who is as chilled as you when things get so delayed.”
Meditation just helped me cope.
But with COVID and loneliness, I was drawn to everything which was opening my pineal gland AKA the third eye (I just didn’t know it at the time). Walks in nature or by the ocean, journalling, meditation, dancing, sleeping by the moonlight and solitude.
When I meet people, I’ve started to visualise a white bubble around me (it’s a classic way of protecting your energy). I didn’t even know if it was working or not. Then a friend who is doing a course on intuition and a degree of clairvoyance tried to read me. She said, “All I’m getting is a filter. It’s like a white cloud over your face. I’m getting nothing else, I can’t read anything.” I couldn’t believe it. I was protecting my energy. Nothing bad in, nothing bad out.
It feels absolutely new most days – but I’m learning to trust it more and more. I’m trying so hard not to be in my head about it and to just let it flow (as always, easier said than done).
I don’t know where I’m going with this. I’ve found a few women along the way and some resources. If you know of any more – shout out – I am so curious.
If you’re on your own sort of spiritual journey – here are some wonderful books I’ve read lately;
Untamed – this is such an easy read – she’s got short nuggets of stories – I loved just about each and every one of them. This is one of my “forever collection” books.
The Surrender Experiment – this reinforces everything I’ve believed in about life – the bit at the end gets a bit full on for me, but the baseline of it is the same: TRUST and the universe will solve it all for you.
The Alchemist – MAN OH MAN. So much in this resonated with me. It felt like I was coming home in many ways.
The Seat of The Soul
I have just started this one – it’s so damn deep, I need to do it page by page to stay semi-focused.
And I’ve found Led By Source on Instagram and he has some pretty epic (and aesthetic!) content.
In short. I’ve never really understood how capable we are of manifesting what comes our way. How our thoughts (conscious but MOST IMPORTANTLY, subconscious) form the world around us. How interactions we have lead us onto the next steps of our journey. How everything that comes into our life, is something we have in some way or form, attracted for our learning and evolution.
There are no coincidences.
There was a weekend a few weeks back when I was meditating up in Woori Yallock and I looked up at the stars filling the night sky in delight.
And I heard:
And you think you’re the one who is in control?
It made me smile. At the end of it all – we’re in the hands of something so much larger than us – a force field. We can try, but even our trying begins and ends at the hands of the universe.
Life is changing and it is at once terrifying, exhilarating, magnificent and incredible.
I am. In. Awe.
Just when I thought I’d levelled up, I’m learning, there is so much further to go. After all, I am Thursday’s child.
Side note – I look back at so many of my posts and realise how un-humble I was. I felt like I knew all there was to know. I hope I’m changing.