I never knew just how much I loved you till the moment I thought i might loose you.
X
K
Category: The Sexes (Page 3 of 15)
Don’t look at me like that.
Don’t be so attentive.
Don’t give it all away.
Don’t laugh at everything I say.
Don’t open doors.
Don’t be a gentleman.
Don’t have great friends.
Don’t be so considerate.
Don’t walk with swag.
Don’t wear them kicks.
Don’t take me so seriously when I’m talking about something so deeply.
Don’t champion me.
Don’t be there for me.
Don’t.
Because it’s making me weak.
X
K
Hey you.
I know you.
I know that game you’re playing.
Such a tease.
I know men who stop, drop and roll for me.
I know that tone.
That delight.
I know this dance you and I are playing.
The flirty dance.
The one which is a rush.
With each message arriving with a heady ting.
Each stroke.
A flush of guilt and euphoria all at once.
I know.
It’s the chase.
The whole game is the chase.
Once that’s over.
The game is over.
For me it is.
Unfortunately for you, it has begun.
But I’m out honey.
I’m out.
X
K
I don’t think you understand.
What it feels like.
To not know.
When he’ll pounce next.
To leave the home in fear that your baby might not be in safe hands.
To see bulging eyes.
To know that you.
You.
Are not present.
In that moment.
So far gone.
You could do anything.
And so today.
Like other days.
I hold my shit together.
He cries in my arms.
But what if.
What if tomorrow.
I rile up?
What if tomorrow he hits you?
Then what you gone do?
With all that angst?
Why is it that
In this day
In this decade
In this moment under the sun
I never realized
I thought I needed my mans permission to live the life I wanted.
How do you find the light? How do you find the change?
How do you get heard?
How do you create a love you want to be true?
All.
All.
All.
It all.
Starts with you.
With your love.
With your pleasure.
Focus on it KK.
And don’t forget.
X
K
Without you.
My shoulders feel lighter.
X
K
Sometimes.I just don’t get most of the rest of the population. Like a WHOLE HEAP OF OTHER WEIRD DUMB ASS PEOPLE.
I just don’t get sexist jokes.
I just don’t get wankery.
I just don’t get people who play to the same fucking tune.
Seeking change yet unwilling to change.
I’ve had business men who won’t even reply to my messages (multiple) but when V gives them a missed call, they’re like jumping out of their pants.
I’ve met men who can talk to V and I about business, a joint business venture and they won’t look me in the eye.
I’ve met men who ask me about my career, then the moment they realise I’m delighted with what I do, they exit the conversation. I’m like HOLLA, I’m just getting started.
I just don’t get people who see women as less or not even on the page.
They make me sick to my stomach and my tolerance is getting down to negative zilch as I age.
Get off my porch.
Out of my life.
Don’t even take up a freaking whatsapp message of MB space in my beautiful, bountiful mind.
DELETE.
I WILL NOT TOLERATE THAT SHIT WITH SILENCE.
AND QUITE FRANKLY, YOU SHOULDN’T EITHER.
X
K
When I measure my selfworth upon your standards and your approval and your acceptance.It is the most ruthless, cruel and brutal way I can begin to be with myself.
X
K
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I’ve started to realise now, how I let people set the bar for me in the past. They probably didn’t do it intentionally. But from parents, to teachers, to men I’ve loved and women I’ve adored. They all had their own standards for things and for some reason, I wanted to meet their approval, to be good enough for them. For so long.
Now I know. The best thing for me. Is to be good enough for me.
That’s it. X
One day.
I too will twist your insides and watch them burn.
Hurt you where it hurts the most.
Stab the ego where once the heart said, “don’t please don’t”.
I too will.
Take control of something you love.
Because you might be in a window of time where what you own isn’t yours.
I too will hold what you need prisoner.
One day.
I will break you.
Just like did me.
Ruthlessly.
Humiliatingly.
And your tears of shame.
Will release me.
From this moment.
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I never thought I was the revenge type of person. But there was a moment. It’s long gone now. But it was there. In that moment.
Xx
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