womanhood

a work in progress

Category: How To Be Mindful (Page 2 of 9)

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Ordinary

Being at ease in the ordinary-ness enables you to tap into the extra-ordinary-ness of yourself.

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(I’m still getting my head around, but it was inspired by feeling like my life was dull and boring…)

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Yourself?

What all will you sacrifice to avoid loneliness?
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K

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Do children ever heal?

From the ruler.

From the belt.

From the spatula.

From the rolling pin.

From the terror.

From the fear.
Or do they grow into adults.

Who cower in the corner.

Or yell till they reach the end.

Who slam the door, not to win, but to shield.

Or taunt and poke at every turn.

Who can’t control their raging bodies.
We learn different methods of coping.

Different methods of winning.
As if this senselessness is the only way to sail thru.

The thing is.

How much are we changing.

And how much are we passing on?
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K
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I am not perfect. Trust me. I am NOT. 

For Aru. I seem to want to be. My own anger, moodiness and rage, frightens me. I don’t know why violence is such a massive thing for me. Perhaps this life. Perhaps past lives. 

To raise a man who doesn’t hit his wife, will be a magical thing for me. We’ve got a long way to go. And if this is one thing I can do to help make it happen, manage myself, work with my husband, his father. Then I will do it, the best way I can, the best way I know how. 

Inshallah. 

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In my (not so humble) point of view 

Success is nothing other than.How happy you are right here.

Right now.
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K

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Responsibilities 

It’s our responsibility to ask the questions.
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K
// I always felt I didn’t need to know about the investments, about the money, about the fine lines, about my own health and more. I put this ownice on Vivek. I’m learning now. Everything to do with me and Aru, is my responsibility. And I need to know, I need to be informed. 

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Never needing permission

What life would you be living, if you didn’t need someone else’s approval. 
For what you studied. 

For how much money you made. 

For how many nights you went out. 

For which bags you bought. 

For the food you ate. 

For the tidiness you kept. 

For what you did during the day. 
If you took a pen a paper and thought. 
IF NO-ONE ELSE MATTERED

WHAT WOULD I WANT TO DO WITH MY LIFE. 
Would I want to travel and live overseas for a couple of years? 

Would I have a bottle of coke every now and then? 

Would I buy a $1000 dress instead of 5 $200 ones? 

Would I change my career to something which offered less OR more money? 

Would I buy an apartment instead of a house? 

Would I wear huge earrings and bright pink shoes? 
WHO WOULD I BE IF YOUR THOUGHTS WEREN’T IN MY HEAD? 
For every daughter. 

For every wife. 
Let us stop living for their approval and based on their permission. 

Let us believe in our own concepts of life and lifestyle and find the mid-way ground or the no-tolerance ground if it is what you truly believe in. 
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K – still finding her way. 

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Choice

The greatest thing we all have
Is how we choose to think. 
What we tell ourselves everyday. 

The little thoughts running around in our mind. 
We can tell them.
F-this-sad-as-shit today is going to be awesome because xyz.

And every day. 
Every shitty day, when we wake up, wanting to go back to bed, 
We can change that feeling. 
By choosing how we think. 
Rather than thinking… 
That what is. 
Is. 
Because it isn’t. 
It can be whatever the fuck you want it to be. 
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K

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Why.

Why do we cheat? Why do we hit? 

Why do we crave ice-cream? 

Why do we seek affection? 

Why do we need that afternoon coffee? 

Why do we need to travel? 

Why do we seek connection? 

Why do we buy that extra pair of shoes? 

Why did we put down the money for the Leowe? 
I’ve always been about finding out the why. 
But now, it feels like I know so much “why”. 

It almost makes it harder to
Just. 

Be. 

 

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Is depression?

Perhaps not the act that cause you become / be / do. But the after math of all of that. 

The dawning. 
Of. 
Oh. 
Shit. 

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How am I feeling? 

Like I’ve released something. 
Like I need to keep on going. 
Like I need to forgive the past. 

Accept it was a time of learning, at least it wasn’t a lifetime. 
You know not, how many times I’ve wondered. 

If other people live like this. 
With all this shit in their heads. 
Going on and on. 
Like a mouse in a loop. 

Scurrying. 

Scurrying. 

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