Miles away from my boys.
My man and my son.
The cheeks that brush mine so often.
The arms that spread wide open to engulf me.
The wise counsel at night when I’m restless and anxious.
The abundant love that never doubts me.
The two of them.
Fill my world.
On most days.
Being without them makes me feel like I’m walking around without a pair of my limbs.
I don’t know why the credit card account is blocked.
I don’t know when lunch time has passed.
I don’t know how to find the strength to fill a day with more fabric talk.
And I long.
For each of them.
Each hug filling my insides.
I grow stronger each passing moment.
I learn about export duties.
I know how to send a firm “no” non-verbally at a harassing taxi driver.
I smile at receptionists and I know they find the magic in my smile,
A magic I thought I’d lost long ago.
I realise I’ve paid double per metre than I needed to.
I am pampered by others in my life, I usually care not to notice.
The mother coming home to Aru is anew.
The wife coming to V is anew.
The learning is in the risk you take.
The growth is in the leap you rise to.
When you feel pain, there is some kind of personal journey happening right there.
So don’t run.
Feel it anyway.
The only way out.