This is an iffy topic.
You see, there was a time when I was a girl from Mt. Roskil, stacking cans of Coke in a dairy fridge after school.
There was a time when we got to choose one gift for our birthday.
Then there was a time when we lived with our grandparents, the five of us plus the two of them in a 3 bedroom house with a single toilet and a single bathroom.
Soon after that, there was a time when we took a holiday every year – and by holiday, I mean an international vacation.
Private school, iPhones, iPads, Peugeots. The luxe life (I mean, to you it might not be a Merc, but for me, it was, the luxe life).
Papa always concealed the funds to us, we never knew if there was more or if there was less. Only Maa knew.
From what I thought, we always had plenty, always had enough.
And soon after I got married, there was a time when I thought $10 was expensive for a lunch out. Cheap eats became my thing and I don’t say this from sorrow or grief or like I went through a tragedy. I say it with a secret pride.
My friends were chipping in $50 for birthday gifts and I couldn’t find the words to say, “Gee that feels like a lot”.
My salary was $42K a year and by the time it reached the bank account I was surprised by how little people lived on.
I never knew much about the money.
It was never a core strength or an area of interest. No matter how much my mother-in-law wanted to guide me, I couldn’t be the sponge to soak her advice.
After the steady salaries, came the low funds from being business owners.
There were fights.
I pined for dresses and bags.
Trips my sisters took but I couldn’t.
Or boots my sisters bought that I couldn’t.
I fudged conversations, told myself I didn’t really want the things I wanted.
This is not poverty my friend. I know that and so do you.
But after the counselling and the meditation.
After the investing and the weekend working.
And after our little darling Aru.
Shit kinda came together.
And what I’m saying is.
I’m saying on those weekends when we went into work.
Through those 2am wake ups to see if a developer had done his job.
Beyond those lattes we missed and the ones we had.
That it could work.
This could work.
A life the way we wanted it to be.
And people look at us today – they say we’re priviledged.
I say, “Yes, we’ve always believed we’re priviledged”.
And tomorrow, when the storm rages, if it rages, we’ll stand by it.
That we are priviledged.
Because it is this belief. This belief itself. That has made us priviledged, through the storms gone past.
So my question to you is, do you believe you are priviledged?