One of my cousins says,

Start as you mean to go on.

And I’m only learning now.

The sustainability of it.

I’m a real diver.

At the start of a friendship or a relationship, I’ll come dashing in.

Bending and even keeling over.

Perhaps I want to be loved back.

Perhaps I want to give and my heart is always having little explosions.

But I’m learning now.

To hold back.

Pause.

Observe.

And then.

To start as I mean to go on.
Xx

K